Wound up like a sprung
AuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGH.
There is no reason, NONE, that I should be this frustrated in every single aspect of my current situations. And I totally am. I’m just on edge. Really, really on edge. It’s my friends and my love and my job and my family and a million things I can’t even talk about. It feels like a weight pulling on the back of my nose and hanging in my throat, it’s wanting to scream and it doesn’t help anything, it’s having no one to talk to sometimes about everything, it’s about having nothing to hold onto. When I feel this way I want to destroy something beautiful. Instead, I rest my head on something sturdy and heave. I just heave. It sounds like whales and tastes like I’m sucking on paper and pennies. Augh, Christ, Lord, this can’t go on much longer. Just once I’d like for something to be easy.
Tomorrow will be a really great day and everything will be much better than it is right now. Much better. I AM FINE AND EVERYTHING IS FINE AND NOW I’M GONNA PLAY POKER. Sanity be damned.
December 30th, 2005 at 3:00 am
I think that means you need some WINGS w/i the next week!
December 30th, 2005 at 10:45 am
hey, lp, i love your new pic! soooo cute! :)
December 31st, 2005 at 3:41 am
I´ll be in Austin on february. How´s Tennis there ?